Last nights show with Sarah Darough was a great experience. I love opportunities to play new and interesting works with good people, and getting the chance to play something that allows me to truly focus on a beautiful sound throughout is very satisfying to boot. There were some beautiful moments in last nights work. Overall, the show went off without a hitch and any performance mishaps were recovered professionally enough to keep the audiences experience in tact. I would call my experience last night, an exercise in subtlety.
When you play chamber music you have the opportunity to be a soloist and ensemble performer all at the same time. You need to find how your part interweaves with the other musicians. Feel out when it is ok to give a little more, without sacrificing the mood and experience of the audience and the other players. You learn to savor the one note solo’s. With so few players on stage, you all learn to look out for one another. Breathing becomes a group activitiy. The rhythm and rhyme of the music translate into a gentle wave that passes through the players as they all begin to sway to the beat.
Chamber music is a great way to awaken the romance of music in even the most cynical of pros. I know very few players that don’t enjoy being able to create in such a warm and giving environment.
Now I am on to a couple days of personal practice time to make up for the past 5 days of performances and rehearsals. I have mentioned before just how difficult the balance of practice vs. performance can be. We have to practice to be able to perform at our best and we, or at least I, need performances to look towards to get the full benefit out of my practicing. I can always feel when I have been doing more public playing than practicing. There is a similar decline in subtle nuances of my playing as when I take a day or two off. It happens a little more gradually, but the deterioration shows first in entrances and the connection of notes, and moves on to range and eventually endurance goes down. Luckily a couple days of shedding and fundamentals tends to correct any of those issues that tend to arise.
So now I get to look back at the past few days with a smile and the knowledge that some very fine work was done, and forward to doing an even better job on what is to come based on what I have been able to learn from those days.